Montana Drama Momma's

Man I'm so sick of all the drama in this damn town its crazy! So the girl i mentioned before..i think i called her Lynn well now that shit has hit the fan idc about keeping her identity a secert. So here names Ashley...so anyways...after the whole baby shower ordeal..you know the whole baby shower mess when i went to the ER for bleeding and couldn't attend her baby shower and such..i wrote her saying i was sorry i wouldn't be able to make it, and that i hope she has a good time and so on. Well she never wrote me back..no biggy..whatever...so that was a week ago so last night i was like wow i haven't seen Ashley on and usually she's on all the time...so i go ahead and try to find her...she deleted me...talk about stupid movies...so here's what i wrote to her...and what she wrote me back...

Alishia Jamesson July 30 at 6:54pm well just wanted to say i think its funny how you want to try to be friends but the second something happens and i cant make it to your baby shower you delete me....i don't care but just wanted to say its pretty hypocritical of you. .



Ashley's response- July 30 at 7:19pm okay i didn't delete u cause u didn't come to my baby shower! Cause if that was the cause i would have deleted Amanda McCormick ... I deleted you cause for #1 . I will be gone for a month and when i get back you wont be here that much longer


#2 we don't really hang out that much anyways






It wasn't anything u did i i decided to do it myself .


Alishia Jamesson July 31 at 2:53pm well if that were true you would have also deleted Sam...so whatever...i just think its pretty funny how to bitch to EVERYONE about how you don't have any friends...maybe its because you do stupid shit like this. But i will be blocking you from contacting me cause i don't think your worth my time or efforts. Plus i don't wanna deal with anymore of your BS
 
You know i don't care that she deleted...i don't care that she doesn't want to be friends...what pisses me off more is that she totally lied to my face. I mean Sam...is leaving in like 5days to go back to Florida FOREVER...yet they are still friends...you see what i mean? It just really pisses me off. If you don't wanna be friends just be honest...be like well you know your leaving and i really didn't wanna be friends with you anyways...it will of course suck but at least it wouldn't be a bull face lie. This is why i hate girls here in Montana...i mean god damn...I've been able to stay friends with my girls in Maryland even being here for the past 4 1/2 years...i mean come on. I think its silly how she tells everyone how she needs more friends and its so hard to keep friends...well hello if you keep deleting ppl and lieing to there face who the fuck would wanna be friends with you? I just hate ppl like that...its one thing to grow apart after not living near each other...but its another to completely cut ties for such a ridiculous reason as oh well you wont be here....so I'm still online everyday. I still keep my friendships strong with my online friends like holly, Sara and Nikki. I also keep my friendships with friends in other states like Keri, Chrissy, and Kayla. I mean come on. Get real. Its a true pity to see people who are like 26yrs old and still act like they are 15. I mean i know she said its not because i didn't go to her shower...but i mean she never wrote me back...she hadn't talked to me and less then a week later I'm deleted from her FB...yea but its for other reasons right?
 
Well that's my rant and rave for today...just be honest with me...that's all i ask...that's all i can do to you in return.

If it acts like a duck and quacks like a duck....

So we got our ultrasound on Monday 7/26/2010. The UT (ultrasound tech) couldn't confirm the sex with 100% certainty. But she did say she didn't see anything dangling and she checked every angle possible...and i too saw nothing dangling. But even with not seeing anything i still had that little bit of ..what if...But the UT did say she thinks its a girl. and with all the problems i believed i was having a girl. Well today i went and bought Intelligender. Its supposed to be able to tell you the gender of your unborn baby as early as 10weeks...well i wasn't going to buy it...but after me going what if...what if...i broke down and bought that sucker for 30 bucks...yes 30 damn dollars...so i open up the package..and the container holding the chemicals is sealed i couldn't open it...on the top of the lid is this itty bitty hole...so i peed in the cup they provided and used the serenge and pured my pee pee into the container...and mixed it up...i patiently waited...and it sure enough turned bright YELLOW..which means GIRL!!!!

So now that i finally feel 110% confirmed I'm so excited! i feel like i can start shopping and buying for my baby girl Haylee! I want to scream at the top of my lungs and jump up and down...so i thought on top of my UT and the intelligender i thought id go threw my old wives tales that also helped me confirm this is indeed a little girl!

1. Carrying High, Carrying Low- With Benjamin OMG i carried him so low...in fact until i got pregnant with haylee i didn't understand the difference between high and low..lol. But now that Ive compared pictures...OMG I'm carrying Haylee so damn high its crazy....here's a little look into what i mean...

Me pregnant with Ben @ 17 weeks

Me pregnant with Haylee @ 17wks

2. Heartbeats- They say with a boy the heartbeat is below 140 and for a girl its above 140. Haylees heart beat has been 158, and 148...so according to that she was a girl lol

3. Cravings- They say if you crave sour food its boy and sweets its a girl. With Ben i don't remember craving anything. But with haylee...i would wake up in the middle of the nigh craving kit Kat bars...to the point i would drive to the store just to get a kit Kat bar...it was crazy....i even ate an entire bag of chocolate chips cause i was craving sweets so bad lol.

4. Face round and full- With Ben i really didn't put on any weight in my face...but with Haylee i think my face looks chubby....

5. acne- they say if you have clear skin its a boy and bad acne its a girl...not to toot my own horn but BEEP BEEP. Cause the most pimples Ive had at a time were like maybe 2 on my chin....or in my hair line...well with Ben i had literally NO pimples...and with haylee OMG I'm broke out all the time...Ive got bumps all over my for head...is a total pain in the ass.

so with all this evidence i knew i was having a girl..and another one that Ive noticed... for some reason your mom can seem to tell from the moment you tell her your pregnant...with Ben as soon as i said i was pregnant she said boy...and with haylee as soon as i said I'm pregnant she said girl..

But I'm so damn excited! I cant wait for my baby shower and to just shop for miss haylee!

"People see you how you want them to see you, But you cant fool your friends"

A picture is worth a thousand words, I have been lucky in my life. I have met some incredible people, People who see me for what i really am. They see the true blond nerd that i am. And what i love most...not that they see it..but that they accept it. They don't try to change me, they don't try to down myself. They help me embarrass my nerdiness. I love each and everyone of my Friends for different reasons, i love them all for who they are but its really magical when you can meet someone and just know that you will be friends forever...and not just that oh Best friends forever mumbo jumbo. But the true meaning of forever. I know that they will always be there for me. They've been here for me through my ex's...Mike and victor...they were there for happiness and my sadness. I don't feel judged when I'm with them..and i know i can be myself in front of them...I want them to know how special they are to me, and how i really appreciate there kindness, there friendship and just them for being there selves.

In no proticular order....

Chrissy,

We have known each other since high school and though we never had classes together, and we never really hung out with the same crowd we somehow formed this friendship. You are such an amazing woman, and friend. I remember how i called you when everything happened with mike and you were by my side there for me. You have showed me that it doesn't matter how long you hang out with someone that when its meant to be nothing can keep you from being friends. I love you, i love your family, I even love (making fun of) your creepy old ppl that sits in your moms window lol. One of my favorite memory's of us is when you tricked me into having that damn kettle corn popcorn...(which by the way i will be expecting as my welcome home present) Then when you came back over with the regular stuff i made you go back home and get the kettle corn LOL. Talk about a practical joke gone bad LOL. I know that no matter how long we go without talking, or how long its been since we see each other i know you will always be my friend. And i cant wait to have you be apart of my children's lives. and i hope someday ill be a big part of our children's lives as well...But no matter how much time passes...you will still always be...Triple X boobies LOL...you didn't really think you could be mentioned in a blog and not get that thrown in there did you?

Keri,

Oh Keri...my former cult member lol, my ellicott city buddy, my silly little blond LOL. I don't think i can think of one flaw you have in my eyes. I love all of our silly blond moments and i love how pure you are. Your very laid back and sometimes that's just what i need. You have been here for me and have always looked past the bull crap and the drama and have just been you. You've never made crazy decisions due to drama. And being around you is a breath of fresh air...no drama is always nice. My favorite memory of is...even though there are so so many, i think would be the many times we did Bernie nights. All the fun dancing..all the making fun of people..good times good times...I cant wait to get back into the settle and start doing our Bernie nights again. I love our true blood nights and now we can even start having pretty little liar nights. You will always be a great friend to me, i really missed you, and i cant wait to see you soon!

Kayla,

Even though our friendship really started out in the most messed up of ways, you've been here for me for the past 2 years. You are my little dose of Jerry lol. But i always know you have my back. And for that i love you. My favorite memory of us would def hands down be the night we stayed up all night to watch Harper's island. That was one of the best nights. We've been through some crazy times, and some pretty wild times. But i know your one that i can count on.

I love the quote from pretty little liars...i think it really captures how i feel about my girls. it says

"People see you how you want them to see you, but you cant fool your friends"

this is 100% true. I know that no matter how many fake smiles i could put on, my girls know when I'm truly happy and when something is really wrong. I just know that i wouldn't trade my girls for the world!

Moodswings, tampon removal, and shut the hell up already!

Man they say men don't have mood swings but i beg the differ, My husbands been driving me up a god damn wall. For the past week and a half all he does when he's home is bitch, and man its getting so annoying. Today, he got home...i was watching Dad camp minding my own. and i simply relayed a message, His Sgt called and said to have him call when he got home. So that's what i told him. He called and he told him he had to be in dress blues to see the first shirt tomarrow probley about our date and what not. But man then he started bitching about how his uniform had to be cleaned..so he said ill take it to a 1 hour dry cleaning...so when he called them and got off the phone i told him, that we were on "E" and that we needed gas so we couldn't leave...not being mean just letting him know. Well he goes off tell me to stop talking to him and that he's annoyed cause apparently me informing him of info is me bitching at him? how that works i have no damn idea. So i of course tell him to pull the tampon out and change it cause he's got bad PMS or something. and that kind of shit has been going on for the past week and half. Its driving me crazy. He bitches about EVERYTHING, he'll come home and ill be watching TV and he will wine that he wants to plan video games...well excuse me...you got home late today and i wasn't watching anything when you were supposed to be home...but since you are an hour late getting home i decided to turn on an hour long show. Get over it. Man i don't know how much longer i can be hormonal and have to deal with his PMS. I love him but sometimes i wanna take him outback and beat him with a stick. I think he's got a case of my hormones, like how some guys gain weight during there wives pregnancies well he's gotten the hormones part of it. And its annoying. AHHHHH i think i should go and get him a pad or something...idk...give him some midol...

Chapter 1, of my so called new life

Its been 9 days since we found out we are being separated from the military. I feel so anxious and nervous and excited and afraid. Along with the new chapter of our life starting I'm starting to get annoyed with people, people here in Montana just aren't people in Maryland. They get so butt hurt here its silly really. I'm so sick of people taking silly things personally when really its nothing to get upset about. For example this one girl, Ill call her Gia...she keeps messaging me on FB and i always leave my FB up no matter if I'm actually on the computer or not. And she got so upset that i wasn't even on the computer and she messaged me and i didn't reply. I even tried to appology and she just wasn't having it...i mean come on people. And another girl. Ill call her Lynn she kept driving me crazy about going to her baby shower...and the day of her shower..i woke up bleeding...and since I'm 17wks pregnant this scared the hell out of me. So i was taken to the ER and they put me on bed rest for the remainder of the weekend...i let the girl know i was sorry i couldn't make it to her shower but she never wrote me back and has not said one word to me since..that was 4 days ago...Its just silly. I think people here expect far to much out of others. I mean things come up, people get sick...but oh well...not like i plan on continuing a relationship with them once i leave this quicksand base. I am blessed that i met one person. Her name i wont keep secret cause i think she deserves come reconnection. Hers names Amanda, and i honestly think she's a god sent. In the past year she's really been here for me when others were not. I really hope we can continue our friendship after i leave. She's someone I've grown rather fond of in the last year. Made this place not as bad. I will miss her dearly when I'm gone.

On other moving notes, i have so many things going threw my head i dont know where to start. I wanna plan my own baby shower at home, i wanna find a house to buy, i wanna plan the drive home, i wanna plan what we will do when we first get home. I wanna plan all the wonderful Maryland things we will do in the next coming months. Like Renfest, and the zoo, oh the possibility's. I cant wait to just be home, be able to call my friends and go driving around elliott city, or just drive around Pasadena spying lol. I keep thinking...somethings gonna happen and this is all just a dream to get to move back to Maryland...i really hope to get our final date soon for heading home..maybe it will be more real then. I think even when we get to MD it wont seem real...might take some time to really feel 110% for real.

On other news, yesterday...at around 6 i found out I'm having a baby girl, who to think it. A little girl, a little Haylee. Ben's gonna have a little sister...i keep thinking..man watch the tech have screwed up and haylee is really a mason...god i hope not. Ive wanted a little girl for so long, and it just seems like a dream come true. I get to not only raise my little boy and little girl. But i get to do it in the state i adore. I cant believe all the problems with this pregnancy is all caused by sugar and spice...and everything nice. But man let me tell you...being pregnant with a girl is way worse then carrying a boy...at least in my opinion lol. Well i better sign off...its 215 am here and it seems to be another uncomfortable, sleepless night for me.